Happy Mother’s Day to all moms out there! Hoping your day is as special as you are.
I can’t really think of anything more special than being a mother, and at the same time, I can’t think of anything scarier than being a mother. The joy and the love is unmatched with anything else in life, but shadow of fear of something happening to your children is always there. I don’t think I ever truly understood how much my parents loved me until I had my own children, nor I understood why they were always worrying so much. Now I do.
Being a mom, a parent, is the toughest job in the world, and when you want the best for your child, you always have this sense of not being enough, not doing enough. And it’s like anything else in life; you can’t have it all. It’s tough to balance wanting to be a strong female role model, and trying to show your children everything in life is possible when being that person means that you sometimes have to skip going to see the school play, which should be most important thing in your calendar.
There are women who become mothers who give everything for their children and devote their lives for their children. I am not one of those women, but I don’t think it makes me a bad mother. I want my children to carve their paths, I don’t want to do it for them. I want to lead by example and show that I am making my dreams come true and they can make theirs come true too. I want to guide my children to find where they want to go, not push them to go where I think they should go. I want my children to be confident in their choices and actions.
My children sometimes get mad at me, because I don’t solve all of their problems but rather teach them problem solving skills. To teach to fish is more important than giving the fish, but often giving the fish would be easier. I don’t want to take the easy route, and I’m often also the “bad mom” for the sake of teaching the lesson. While as parents we often are the teachers, it’s still my children who have probably taught me as much about life as my parents ever did. My children have opened my eyes for new things, and motherhood has taught me more about myself than anything else in life.
I’m learning and loving my life as a mother every day.